That tuesday after school something bad going on to me haiz..
i am so sad still.. It happen like this, when go home that time
it was raining my friend johnson need me to bring him to bus stop
and i asked my friend kuma i bring johnson to go bus stop.. i will wait for you there
and he ans back u go 1st.....nvm u go 1st... but i said i will wait for you at bus stop....then i walk off so when reaching the bus stop i tell johnson u go 1st i wait for kuma so my friends and i was waiting....for him so i call him he never ans
my call and thought something happen and i call 3 times and saw him...walking up the bus stop...then suddenly he walk down i call agian still never ans my call i call raymond to call him......and then he ans then i was a bit angry but i forgive him i know he will give reason then nvm but he was angry too beacuse he asked me go 1st...haiz...
when go home time i never think about it beacuse i was thinking wat present to send kexin birthday... erm so i went to jurong point to buy present around 5 plus so i when to comic shop to buy aa cute present for her.. after buying present my friend call me 6pm must reach jurong east so i walk faster to take train when i reach i go meet wei yan 1st after that jia xian, yan ping, xui min
they all we start the plan go imm but present and cake for her.. then yan ping will meet her 1st ya...so i also heard that kexin was sad and i actually wan to call her to make her happy...but i never beacuse wan to make her a big suprise
then when we reach imm around 6 :15 jia xian and i buy present ... xui min and wei yan buy cake after that we meet togather... then wew for got to buy lighter so i faster when down and go buy lighter....and i take lift to 5 floor to get prepare every thing so we waited for her around 7:55 she reach so the candle xui min light up and jia xian when down to fetch her but too early then we blow off 1st haha... but jian xian call le so we faster light up but that time the lighter was hard to light up so i light ther canndle faster but i burn my tumb a bit but never mind is kexin birthday so she reache le was a surpreise
we sing birthday song for her and she make a wish..... and blow the canndle
and she cry is her 1st time clebrate with friends...so was very happy we cut the cake togather too haha and she feed us and give us a hug lols we was happy that day night and we take some photos togather.. too after that we go home.....
kexin, wei yan, jia xian we take the same bus... togather and we said good bye cya tmr haha......

wednesday 29/8/2007
on wednesday when going to the lunch brake we going to go out side eat then it something happen that i was very up sad beacuse that he was still angry about the matter on tuesday... then my friends asked me what happen.. i ans back how i know i tell him every thing.....but then go canteen buy food eat fast and just walk alway and find a good place to convince myseft alone.... i feel like crying beacuse i don't even understand it after de brake ... selavm my teacher saw me soo moodly i nothing to said i just wan to be alonerin my darkneess so won't happen anything and johnson asked me wat happen
i said nt he said he know le so i can't take it i cry le selavm asked wat happen i slow de hp to johnson the blg,i put in my hp my teacher call me don't think about it don't thing too much... so watever it come watever is gone wat thing comes always gone no ppls will understand on this friendship i put i put my lift to it no matter wat happens i settle every thing go to me i settle i really wish to end myself ... but i never i love some 1 i also never said i care about them to me i am just a nothing in my life...

"I will persist. I will win!"