today was my sad day ever.i won't foregt it make me feel so down and acting that i am ok
in my true heart.today after night shift if i faster go get the returns things won't happen.
and was blame badly.. i don't mind i keep it as my lesson but it keep repeat make me
harm feel down........and when i go office i try to tell them that if the things has change.pls inform and never tell me i was stand by to 2nd task.
cos i was remind to info if i work have to inform my supervisor and info to the leader then they clock me in as work..and that i was tease. So down look down and just walk alway avoid friend wanna be alone...and chaught by rain...when i was on my way home .i went out with friends to buy cloths in the afternoon. i was so happy^^ but in the end i came home see my parent face and just wann play game. went start to battle keep calling me i so angry then i speak loud..i head ppl talking to me when i was battle feild i just can't pause a game cos is online...
and yet will make me head them more... why am i like that why can't i do thing right i have been thinking

"I will persist. I will win!"

The time have have been run to fast.. and i wan to restart a of blg as 2010 from now!

it is been 12 years i have miss my pri school friends...and the most is somebody that i have like her alot in my mind. i know that it is hard to said that. i like her the most i can;t really forget about her. this feww days i have thinking about her can't forget it at all..i have been try sending some msg for the past year till now no reply at all.

"I will persist. I will win!"

haiz.. it be a long time never c my blog miss my old friends
i now serve ns in poa so boring hiaz...is a board day haha
but most of the time kena bully very depress i knew i always alone...
time run so fast few more months i going pop soon ^>^

"I will persist. I will win!"

it been a long time i never update my blog .... many things have happen yet....
i never , ever been a good way of being a good friends......
something else told me to give up let the darkness cover me off... just head out and die....
i really don't understand wat i been throught..... loves some 1 and yet ppl take alway
feel so dishearted......last time during my end of secondary i make a promise...
leave my friend alone be myseft won't ever meet them agian but yet i break the promise.....
...i still can't find out why i break my promise 5 points jealous,angry ,sadness,hopeless,uncareness

but this feel weeks i leave flp finding my reason....
have i waste my money during bus fair the ans is yes my brother was right i adult le having
so stressbut earn more money for my bus ... fair if not i can't go anywhere but most of the things
i don't care aslong as i really wan to work i work

"I will persist. I will win!"

This days feel unhappy and make alot of jealous=;= , but i feel so lonely....
n wat i promise i can't do it wat i love i can't love it...feel so down everyday
i really wan end myself le...i just hiding something.....that i never said just
beacuse it is too late and makes me jealous about it...

i never notice wat i love wat i like
is just a darkness be on me and have a bad dream last night dream that i was aim by a gun
but i just easy to snatch always this is wat i dream can't said more about this is just a meaningless.......

i only know how to help u guys settle some problem that u all have i just nothing...u all treat me transparent i treat u all my best friends.. this is the way i have, the way i like ,the only way to said pls stop it all ur cutie face to me is part of my weakness it make me fall in love with u
i wish to forget it...u all wan to know y i seldom happy right is all the reason here...hope u all understand......

"I will persist. I will win!"

Time have run very fast i feel so sad every time... many things have happen to me..1 is my beloved grandfather have pass alway 2 weeks ago i i so sad and cry...in my heart i feel that so sry to him.....because that i seldom talk to him and make me feel so sad and can't understand his feeling....but now i do understand he really like me alot seen i was a little.....it just i have been change alot when i was in pri school i started to hate alot of ppl and now i realize i not a bad after all....i know is too late but i will be always protect watever i came for..

and i do love someone seen i was in sec 3 but i can't even know is it really my love is there or not i feel that i feel in my dream when i see it.... can't even tell her how much i like her but can said that i will be just beside u and cheer u up u never know and always see u so sad but really wan to an wei ni.....if u c this maybe is too late i may lose everything i had before....

"I will persist. I will win!"

That tuesday after school something bad going on to me haiz..
i am so sad still.. It happen like this, when go home that time
it was raining my friend johnson need me to bring him to bus stop
and i asked my friend kuma i bring johnson to go bus stop.. i will wait for you there
and he ans back u go 1st.....nvm u go 1st... but i said i will wait for you at bus stop....then i walk off so when reaching the bus stop i tell johnson u go 1st i wait for kuma so my friends and i was waiting....for him so i call him he never ans
my call and thought something happen and i call 3 times and saw him...walking up the bus stop...then suddenly he walk down i call agian still never ans my call i call raymond to call him......and then he ans then i was a bit angry but i forgive him i know he will give reason then nvm but he was angry too beacuse he asked me go 1st...haiz...
when go home time i never think about it beacuse i was thinking wat present to send kexin birthday... erm so i went to jurong point to buy present around 5 plus so i when to comic shop to buy aa cute present for her.. after buying present my friend call me 6pm must reach jurong east so i walk faster to take train when i reach i go meet wei yan 1st after that jia xian, yan ping, xui min
they all we start the plan go imm but present and cake for her.. then yan ping will meet her 1st ya...so i also heard that kexin was sad and i actually wan to call her to make her happy...but i never beacuse wan to make her a big suprise
then when we reach imm around 6 :15 jia xian and i buy present ... xui min and wei yan buy cake after that we meet togather... then wew for got to buy lighter so i faster when down and go buy lighter....and i take lift to 5 floor to get prepare every thing so we waited for her around 7:55 she reach so the candle xui min light up and jia xian when down to fetch her but too early then we blow off 1st haha... but jian xian call le so we faster light up but that time the lighter was hard to light up so i light ther canndle faster but i burn my tumb a bit but never mind is kexin birthday so she reache le was a surpreise
we sing birthday song for her and she make a wish..... and blow the canndle
and she cry is her 1st time clebrate with friends...so was very happy we cut the cake togather too haha and she feed us and give us a hug lols we was happy that day night and we take some photos togather.. too after that we go home.....
kexin, wei yan, jia xian we take the same bus... togather and we said good bye cya tmr haha......

wednesday 29/8/2007
on wednesday when going to the lunch brake we going to go out side eat then it something happen that i was very up sad beacuse that he was still angry about the matter on tuesday... then my friends asked me what happen.. i ans back how i know i tell him every thing.....but then go canteen buy food eat fast and just walk alway and find a good place to convince myseft alone.... i feel like crying beacuse i don't even understand it after de brake ... selavm my teacher saw me soo moodly i nothing to said i just wan to be alonerin my darkneess so won't happen anything and johnson asked me wat happen
i said nt he said he know le so i can't take it i cry le selavm asked wat happen i slow de hp to johnson the blg,i put in my hp my teacher call me don't think about it don't thing too much... so watever it come watever is gone wat thing comes always gone no ppls will understand on this friendship i put i put my lift to it no matter wat happens i settle every thing go to me i settle i really wish to end myself ... but i never i love some 1 i also never said i care about them to me i am just a nothing in my life...

"I will persist. I will win!"